The past two weeks have been crazy. I'm pretty overwhelmed/stressed with everything that is happening. My Homework load is Nightmareish. I just got assigned another essay from English class, after just finishing the last one. I have a 12 page analysis of US bilateral relations with Cuba and Iran due around the same time, a 5 research paper due next week in gender studies, a 2 page paper for the same class due the week after that, test corrections from my midterm, a 2 page essay and 6 page research paper all for anthro...+ I'm still waiting to hear back from a college in washington, which i might go visit with in the next few weeks. Scholarship applications, and working at Hillel are also on my agenda. And last, but certainly not least, visiting all my friends in the city, which I might not be able to do until the end of the semester.
In other news, my social life in SR~
My new friend spent the night last week, and a lot happened..I ended up regretting and feeling bad about what I did. I realized casual sexual contact, doesn't suit me. I was so emotionally stressed by it, I couldn't enjoy a declicious meal at Hillel, on Friday. I'd tricked my self into thinking I had serious feelings for him, becuase of our intimacy. I felt we'd taken advantage of each others weaknesses, that got us to the point where I was compromising my morals, because I was overcome with lust and liked this individual already as a friend. A similar thing happened Tuesday night. But that went much worse, as it was filled by awkward and embarassing situations. I don't want to put myself in situations where my morals are I must comromise my morals, but it happens anyways because my mind gets fogged by impulses. While we have good chemistry, I don't think I would want to be with this friend, even if he were more available. But I want somebody in my life, just don't know who. If I've already met him or will meet him. After a year of let downs, I need something good.
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