you want a piece of me? sure. okay

The past 6 weeks that i've spent fooling around hasn't made me a happier person. I began this summer thinking that it might be a good idea to gain more experience, meeting more guys and having fun. As I'm only here for another 2 months, I know it wouldn't be smart to get too emotionally involved with someone. But after an experience last night, I feel somewhat grossed out with myself about my behaviour. I was at a club, as usual on a thursday night. I ran into a guy i've been talking to on a website. By the end of the night we ended up in the bathroom with a third guy. use your imagination. We also got walked in on, by a rather forceful individual who tried to join in. awkward.

I guess part of the reason I initially felt a need to meet so many guys this summer, was to compensate for not doing it earlier on in my late high school/early college days and to be on par with the numbers of guys my friends have been with. Well, in a 1 week period, I was with as many guys as i'd been with my entire life up until april. hooking up has kind of become an obsession. I guess it's healthy one at least. but it doesn't make me feel good about myself.