About me

I figure most of the people reading this blog probably already know me.
But here is my life story anyways, for those who don't keep up
I was Born and raised in San Francisco in a secular leftist household by a neurotic and controlling jewish mother and a quiet, scholarly Irish-born father. I attended a middle school where i was terribly unhappy and lonely, but I got exeptional grades and left feeling prepared. Following this, I went to an Art high school, along with the only friend I made in middle school. (who remains one of my best friends to this day). My high school years were an improvement from my middle school experience, but far from perfect. Within a year or two of being there, most of my class had fed into the sketchy druggy culture of the school. I remained innocent and wholesome.
My Junior year was a huge changing point. I came out of the closet. This was a result of seeing therapy for my stress/anxiety problems. I became more reflective and introspective about my feelings. My wants and needs. With time, I became happier, stronger and much more in touch with my emotions. I made friends, particuarly among the young lgbt people in the castro. When Senior year rolled around, I had the intention of being more outgoing and open about myself. This proved difficult as I was already a shy person. I had an immensly difficult time trying to change my persona, to the one I wanted. I struggled that year through Advanced Algebra as well, which i dropped out of junior year, because i was so stressed. Beyond that I recieved all A's. The college application process was dissaitisfying. I didn't get into 3, ended up not liking 3 and received inconveniently late acceptance letters from 2 which included no housing. I decided to not risk the money and unhappiness to instead spend a year or two at a Junior College in Sonoma County.
Living away from home has been wonderful for me. I've become really involved with student life and have recieved good grades. At the same time, i also realize that the JC is only a temporary situation. I want and need more. A strong, stable social life, distance from my family and a University atmosphere full of friendly, intelligent and unique individuals. My love life has been a constant issue... Around the time I moved out of the house, I opened up to a friend about my feelings about him. In the time I'd known him, I knew he liked me. I heard this through mutual friends/aquaintences. I guess I was waiting to hear it directly from him. But then I also realized, that at the time, I really wasn't ready for a relationship.
In October I met someone else. We talked for hours...about everything. We even made out and he told me he really liked me. Since then everything went down hill. He repetetively rejected my invites to "hang out". I cried several times over this. At this point, I've given up on him, and now am looking for new possibilities.